IM SO FUCKING..... AM I REALLY THIS TERRIBLE???? AM I REALLY.... AM

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE ohm y god i cannot take it anymore. OKAY! YOOUUUU FUCKING WIN!!!!!!!! “a complete disregard for everything i have said to you in the past while about my feelings and thoughts” NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! OF COURSE IM FUCKING CONSIDERING HOW YOURE FEELING!!!!!!!! I AM HAUNTED BY YOUR FEELINGS EVERY DAY I AM HAUNTED BY YOUR PAIN!!!!!! EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT NOT ONCE HAVE I BEEN HOSTILE TOWARDS YOU. NOT ONCE HAVE I TAKEN OUT MY SADNESS AND ANGER AND OVERWHELMING EMOTION ON YOU. IM TRYING TO COMMUNICATE. IM TRYING TO BE MATURE. IM TRYING SO VERY FUCKIGN HARD BUT YOURE MAKING IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO DO THAT!!!!!!! HOW HAVE YOU CONTINUOUSLY MANAGED TO CONVINCE ME THAT I AM IN THE WRONG HERE????? AM I ?????? IS IT MENTAL ILLNESS LIKE YOU SAY!?????? IT PROBABLY IS!!!!!!!!!! I PUT MY FAITH IN EVERYTHING YOU SAY TO ME!!!!!!! HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HA HA HA